I think it is important that Jared and I journal our feelings about September 11
th so that our kids and grand kids will know what we thought of that day and what we experienced. Emma is 9 years old now and can't quite fully grasp what happened that day. I understand that. It's like all the things I read in history books, its hard to fully understand it unless you lived it.
Sunday night September 9
th I finally got Jared talked into selling some of our stock so that we could have the cash we needed sitting in our savings account. We were in the process of building of our first home and had plenty of money in the stock market so we could put the down payment down we needed. I kept asking him to cash it, but he wanted to keep holding on to it and watch it go up. The next day, Monday, I headed to work and he was going to cash out our stock while I was gone, but decided he wanted to watch it go up more so he did not heed the advice of his wife. That night I believe there might have been an arguement about him not listening to me and we went to bed with the promise that he would cash it out first thing in the morning!
The next morning was Tuesday, September 11
th. Jared always had Tuesdays off so he would sleep in. I was 4 months pregnant with Emma at the time. We were both laying in bed when our home phone rang. I got up to get it and it was my mom. She is a woman of few words. She basically just said, "go turn on your
tv and watch the news!" I asked why? She said, "just do it, you will see." I went over and turned on the TV and they kept replaying the footage of the planes crashing into the towers in NYC. I couldn't really understand what was going on. I didn't really get how everything was about to change at that moment in time.
I woke up Jared and he came out and watched TV with me. I finally got ready for work and then called down to see if we were still working that day. They said yes, but that they were all gathered around a radio listening to reports or watching things on the
Internet. I had Jared haul my TV out to the car and I headed off to work. I got into my office and had a guy bring in the TV for us and we all huddled around it and just sat there and watched it. We sold medical software across the country. I remember the NY sales rep crying and being very upset because she didn't know how her dealers and customers were doing. I remember people leaving work and going to donate blood. I remember hearing about flight 93 crashing in Pennsylvania and then another plane also crashing into the Pentagon. I remember watching President Bush in an elementary school class being read to and then the secret service whispering in his ear about what was going on. I remember they shut down all flights across the country. I remember hearing things on the news and no one was sure what was going to happen to the other government buildings around the country. I called my dad to see what he was doing. In typical dad fashion, a man of no non-sense/no drama/and a work-
aholic , he said, "working." I remember asking him to leave and just go home. He said, "if there was a problem we would know about it and they would evacuate us."
The day continued to roll on. We were still all gathered around my TV at work watching the same scenes replay over and over. Terrorists in America? Really? Not here, not us. I like to think I live in a Disneyland world, everything is happy and good and bad things don't happen here.
Finally they evacuated my dad's building just to be on the safe side and I felt much better about that. Finally my work around lunch time just decided to send us all home. We weren't working anyways and neither was anyone else around the country.
I took my TV and went home and stayed in my living room glued to the TV the rest of the day. I couldn't take my eyes off of it. I couldn't believe this was happening. It didn't seem real. It was sorta like it was a movie or something. These poor people jumping out of the twin towers knowing they would die once they hit the ground, but still choosing that over staying there inside knowing they would be burned alive. The poor people on the planes knowing they were going to die and there wasn't anything they could do about it. The innocent people who just went to work that day not knowing it would be there last. How could this happen.
Despite all this sorrow and hell these people went through, good things did come out of it. People pulled together. They helped each other. They carried each other down the stairs in the towers, they helped day and night clean up the debris, they helped find bodies and bring them back to their loved ones, they risked their lives to save the life of a stranger. The country got a sense of pride back and started displaying it - like how I pictured it in the 1950s when people would have flags hanging in their yards and yellow ribbons tied around trees. People were wearing red, white and blue, they had flag pins on their clothes and bumper stickers saying, "We'll never forget". People were joining the military left and right because they wanted to over and kill
al-
Queda terrorists and teach them a lesson. People started going back to church and turning to God for peace and comfort. I loved hearing all the amazing stories about how so many more people would have been at work in the towers if it wasn't for a miracle that day like there son missed the bus so they had to drive them to school making them late to work, they had a random doctor's appointment that morning so they were going to work late, things like that. Small things that made a big difference.
I was scared. I do remember being scared. What if this was going to start another world war. What if they were planning other attacks. Everything changed in our country because of that day. Airport security was a big one, even though they changed it completely I was still scared to fly for the first time after September 11
th. I didn't want to be a racial
profiler, but I was. I checked out everyone on the plane to make sure they didn't look like terrorists (whatever that is).
September 11
th is a day I will never forget. It is a very important day in history which changed our country forever. It is a day in which my kids will read about in school. I want them to know my simple thoughts on it. I am proud to be an American. I am proud of the police officers, firefighters, military and every day people who helped out on that day and gave their lives to save others. (I also like to remind Jared that we lost our money in the stock market that day and that he should have listened to his wife and cashed out a long time ago so we didn't have to borrow our down payment from my parents, ha ha!)
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Memories of 9/11 - by Jared
I remember waking up that morning to Carol turning on the tv to the news and showing me what was happening. The first thing I saw was images of one of the towers burning. Reporters were trying to make sense of what was going on and speculating what could have happened. It was as I was sitting there in bed watching the first tower burning that a second plane hit the other tower. I was so captivated that I couldn't even get out of bed.
After the second plane hit the second tower I wondered how in the world it could be possible that another plane could accidentally hit the other tower, then reports started coming out that this could be a terrorist attack. I couldn't fathom this and didn't want to believe it but then reports came out that at least 2 other planes had been hijacked and were flying off course.
I remember seeing one of the towers collapse and couldn't comprehend what I was seeing. It seemed like a movie. It couldn't be happening. I remember feeling such a sense of hopelessness and so helpless. It sickened me to think that someone could do this and that Heavenly Father could let something like this happen. I remember seeing images of people jumping out of windows from the World Trade Centers before they collapsed. They were faint but distinguishable black outlines of people falling through the air. I remember seeing an amateur video of someone in one of the building lobbies and hearing the loud thuds all around them. Those sounds were people falling from the floors above
and landing on the ground.
After I began to grasp what had happened and the media and the government knew what had happened I felt like most of the rest of the nation and wanted justice. Whoever plotted this and did this terrible deed had to be caught and stopped from doing it again. I wanted our President to act and I wanted something to happen. Those feelings then slowly changed over time to wishing we could instead cure the world of such hate that would drive someone to commit such despicable acts.
I'm grateful to hear about the many stories of heroism, from the public officials to the ordinary citizens that gave of themselves to help those around them. I'm grateful to hear about the stories of those that survived and how the attribute their survival to the help of those around them and to the help of God. I believe there were many miracles that day. Each life saved was a miracle. The passengers being able to stop Flight 93 that crashed into an empty field in Pennsylvania was a miracle and a great act of love and heroism.
9/11 was a terrible day in our country's history in terms of the lives lost; but it was a growing period for the world to see the Lord's hand and witness miracles. The US had always been known as one of the great nations to lead the way in worldwide humanitarian efforts, but this time it was the rest of the world that stepped up to help a wounded nation. The outpouring of sympathy was incredible to witness as the rest of the world did what it could to help the US heal.